Complicated

I always overthink when I start writing. I want my work to carry emotional weight. But, it is too easy to think that being verbose actually means that your words have weight.

I read a poem by a friend of mine. The language was simple, but the message was profound. I really enjoyed it.

Sometimes you can't make things too complicated for the sake of sounding intelligent.

Though I did read the above sentence with a poetry drummer beat in my head.

Visitor Time

J Leezy visited for a weekend. It was a lot of fun. Or maybe it was alot of fun.

Ate tons of New Mexico food. Went to a few national parks. And a cool, but odd art exhibit. Went to a graduation party with many new people. Argued over the way the law should operate. All in all a good time.

We also watched the Season 6 finale of Game of Thrones. It was amazing. Lena Headley better get an Emmy.

Lyric of the Day: Joywave - Somebody New

"With my eyes on the prize

Not a thing to my name

With my head in the clouds

And my body don't waste

Don't wanna ever wake up

Don't wanna ever wake up, I don't

Don't wanna ever wake up

Next to somebody new"

Summer is Coming

It has been a while since I last posted. All I have been doing is playing Magic, camping, following the news (especially the election), and watching Cutthroat Kitchen.

Re-reading my old posts I realized that I did a kinda crappy job making sure that things were set up to trigger memories.

I would be annoyed at it, but then again that is kind of poetic.

No matter how much we try to preserve the past, we can't.

And thus we are doomed to repeat our mistakes.

Trite, but true.

And also (once again) one of my favorite ending lines in all of literature is relevant:

"So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past."

I'll stop making this post when it stops being true.

Lyric of the Day: Silversun Pickups - Lazy Eye
"I've been waiting
I've been waiting for this moment all my life

But it's not quite right"

Back to the kitchen

For the past couple months I have gotten pretty bad in terms of ordering out every night. This week I finally decided that I needed to put an end to that.

I went out and got myself a rice cooker, because one of the things that was hindering me was the fact that my rice was kind of bad. Food prep is less rewarding when you know that it will be served on undercooked rice.

I had gotten some Green Curry Seasoning on my last trip up to Santa Fe (Hilariously, the friend who was the impetus for my trip there also caused this post). So today I made Green Curry Chicken with Veggies.

It came out pretty well and now it means I have lunch packed for the week. I guess this is short, but at least it has pictures :)

On a side note I went to Prerelease for the new magic set this weekend and ended up winning a total of 3 packs.

Lyric of the Day: Panic at the Disco - Hallelujah
"I was drunk and it didn't mean a thing.
Stop thinking about,
The bullets from my mouth.

I love the things you hate about yourself.
Just finished a daydream,
Who were you tryna be?"

New Year, Same Me?

The universe may be a constantly changing and transient place, but I will forever forget to take pictured for this blog. Though I guess since I'm not in the Land of Enchantment that is ok.

Just finished playing Don't Starve with a bestie and his GF. It was pretty fun and summarized how I've been spending my down time. Playing video games and eating homecooked food. All in all a good break.

I also managed to read something that has been on my reading list for a long time. And rewatched a season of a show with my dad, while watching a new season of another show with my mom. Balance in all things, right?

Lyric of the day: Echosmith - Tell Her You Love Her
"But don't you run away, run away,
When you get tired.
'Cause this will slip away, slip away,
And start a fire.

That can never be put out.
Oh, hurry time is running out.
But don't you run away, run away,
Before you tell her
You love her"

We are all perfectly alone

One thing that I always have problems explaining to people is my belief in how alone we ultimately are. I found an interview with Childish Gambino that I think does a fairly good job of expressing a similar philosophy to my current view.

Host: "You won't be there with me in the end?"
DG: "No one will."
Host: "No one will! Thanks for clearing that up."
DG: "Not in a bad way... but no one will. And that's ok."

It is pretty crazy to think of the number of people that come into and exit our lives. That grow close to us and that fade away into memory. It used to make me frustrated that life happens like that, but now I think I've trimmed it down to grudging acceptance.

One thing that has come out of this is that I am more comfortable being alone, some thing that is both liberating and concerning. I guess that E on my Meyer's Briggs might be moving back towards an I haha.

Lyric of the Day: Adele - Rolling in the Deep (Jamie xx Remix) ft. Childish Gambino
"You said I wasn't capable of loving you, I never was.
A twenty-something nigga touring the world with hella buzz.
I'm saying that my life's swell: cortizone.
Fuck Macaulay Culkin, never going home alone."

Giving Thanks

I had a pretty great end to the month.

One of my best friends from college passed by town and I got to show him around. Went hiking. Played Magic. Ate at all my favorite places. All in all it was a great trip and I am glad I was able to catch up with him before he begins the next part of his life journey.

One of the hard things for me moving out here is that I moved away from a lot of the people who knew me really well. It's not hard getting to know new people, but building the type of connection that you do after living with someone for four years isn't something that has really happened since I moved.

I also managed to make a trip back home. My mom made my favorite meal the first day I was there. I helped my Dad fix some of his computer problems. My brother and I swam and binge-watched Jessica Jones. It was more relaxing than tiring.

I really need to buy tickets for my Christmas trip back home.

I also need to shave and get a haircut.

Lyric of the Day: Haim - Days Are Gone

"Felt like I was walking on a tight rope
Those days are gone, those days are gone

Sometimes I wish I didn´t miss you at all
Those days are gone"